art nite

[julia writing] so tonite is "art nite". bill decided to get things moving for us, we need to set aside time each week, monday nites, to get chuggin' on NA. in the last few days, i've realized what is keeping me from starting: fear. sometimes as a designer, i fear what clients will think of my work (did i totally miss the mark? will they like it?), fear it won't be "good enough", etc. i thought about what fear really is, and this is what i came up with (for myself): fear is me assuming an outcome. "it won't be good enough, it's been so long since i touched any art that's unrelated to a computer, i'll be rusty." none of this can be present in my mind if i'm going to create anything -- especially anything that glorifies God. so, i endeavor to "play" as connie told me, and press through my fears and get back to my art again. (i say "back" because i've been a full-time designer for awhile and haven't done much of anything outside of work).

i loved beth's post from john piper-- imagination IS work. and it's DEFINITELY a God-given gift that we each have to create. i want to use my gift for His glory -- messy sketches, unfinished ideas and all -- to make His word known. fear completely aside.